Just to Complain a Little...

I like Blogger a lot but I'm not very happy with the advertisements that have started to appear.  My favorite thing about blogger was that there weren't any advertisements.  But, I guess, the advertisements are to make blogger free.  I just don't like advertisements because they usually lie and are very bad things.  I don't like how colorful and inviting they are and I especially hate it when I start reading them absentmindedly while I'm trying to blog.  Blogging is supposed to be fun and my blog is supposed to be inviting.  I'm not having any fun reading my page views when there two fat advertisements on top of them and I'm certain my blog looks less friendly with annoying advertisements sitting at the top of the page.  I hope you know that I would get rid of them if I could, but obviously I can't.  So please ignore the advertisements.

Rain on me

It's been a long weekend.  And now it's Monday and the rain is dreary.  But I guess I shouldn't complain since the rain is what keeps us alive.  But the rain always comes when I feel like I need it least. It feels that way with other things too, though.  Not just rain, but timing for things in general.  Sometimes I really think we underestimate God's timing for things in life.  Sometimes we grumble when it's raining on that one perfect day to go visit the beach.  Sometimes it's that some house hold appliance breaks down just when we're getting ready to go on vacation.  Sometimes the computer crashes and you lose all you files while you're trying to write something important.  But we need to think about these things.

They could very well be "Blessings in disguise" to quote Laura Story.  It happens all the time for me.  Something will just pop up just when I'm least expecting it and instead of thinking about it as something to improve my future, I'll get angry at it for it being there to begin with.

In these times the two things we need most is hope, to hope that circumstances will get better, to hope that pain will lessen; and trust, trust that God will take care of things.  The worst things that happen to you won't last forever; nothing lasts forever except for God's love and your eternity after death.  Think of it like this, twenty years from now, will it matter that you didn't get to do something or to finish that one document or even win that one game?  Not really.  By that time you may have even forgotten, so why worry about it?  Don't stress yourself out over something that's out of your hands.  We can't predict the next weather forecast...But God can...

Kittens Are Cuddly, Kittens Are Cute

Yes they are.  We visited a friend of ours and babysat their twin girls while they were out running errands.  They are getting so big!  But what was really surprising was that they got a new kitten.  They had one to begin with and they got two more but one of them died so there's only one now.  But I swear that he looks like a dwarfed version (and slightly less rusty colored) Cosmo.  He was so adorable!  Oh my gosh, he was only five weeks old!  Can you imagine how small he is?  I can pick him up with one hand.

I fed him his bottle in the cardboard box he sleeps in.  I don't recall ever bottle feeding anything in my life before, but it was really great.  When he was finished eating he would start playing with the bottle so I put it back in the fridge.  Then I pet him to sleep and occasionally stroked him while he slept.  He purred for me a few times.  It's amazing how big a purr can come from such a tiny cat.  Then I spent time holding him and allowing him to explore on the floor and kept him away from the rocking recliner.  I've had 'experiences' with rocking chairs and feet and I didn't want him hiding underneath it.  Soon I got tired of pulling him away from the chair and put him back in his box to sleep.

Most of my time was spent petting the kitten and watching the strange shows on Disney Junior.  Once I stepped from my post by the box and helped the girls with markers and one other time to do puzzles with them.  Then, of course, it was time to leave and I reluctantly left the kitten to his nap.  Cute little thing...

Beauty

We learned about this some in this book called Lies Young Woman Believe.  It's an interesting book and really inspiring and it really does help.  I already knew the lies about beauty and that sort of thing.  That beauty is fleeting and it really doesn't matter what you look like...That really, to me, seems kind of like something that we all learn when we're little.  I think everyone should know this as a fact that you're a beautiful person no matter what others tell you and that beauty is more than just skin deep.

Well, I really thought about it more and realized that there are people out there that beat themselves up because they don't look like people on Teen Vogue magazine or some idiotic advertisement that shouldn't exist.  Really people get real!  Seriously God loves you!  He sent His son to die for you!  Isn't that enough?  Now you're going to ignore this post because, "Oh no she's getting religious again.  I'm not listening to this stuff.  My Sunday school teacher already told me this is first grade!  I shouldn't have to listen to some dumb teenager blabber about this subject." Now you're going to click the "Next Blog" button to see if there's another more helpful blog out there.  Well, this blog post may very well not be written for you.  I'm writing for the One who made me.  So don't think this is a whole bunch of garbage.

See.  I think us older folks just need to be reminded sometimes that it's not important what the people around us think of ourselves, but what God thinks of us.  Now you're thinking, "well how do I know what God thinks of me if he won't talk to me".  Well, God has already spoken.  He wrote an entire book just for you about what he wants to tell you. He wants you to improve your inner beauty more than your outer beauty.  To be stronger in Him.  To show love and peace towards all.

That's way more important than applying mascara to your eyelashes.

And I know this is a blog and that everyone in the universe will probably read this so, I'm not just projecting to all you Christians out there.  I really don't care what you believe.  You are wonderful people and sometimes we don't believe that about ourselves.  I know I don't.  Take it from someone who's been there.  I've never been much for extremes but my mental self feels blows that I don't show.  I'm certain I've posted before complaining about how people don't like me because I'm different.  It's easy to spot someone with dark curly hair and a pair of glasses in a crowd of straight-haired, contact wearing teenagers.

The important thing for all people is that we never hang onto insults.  That's how we get led down the wrong path.  You believe the lies then you act on them and you can only make things worse trying to make yourself appeal more to others.  You can make your situation better by holding onto compliments.  But don't start bragging that someone said you have a great smile or fine colored eyes.  You should never have to put others down to make yourself feel better.  Just hold onto those thoughts and the next time someone tells you something hurtful, remember the ups, not the downs.  Don't let a few words put you down.  Cry if you want too, show emotion.  It's really okay, we aren't all rocks, but don't let something ruin your week, month, year, or life.  Don't hold it over you that you're an awful person.  We can't all be perfect and even (especially) celebrities with all the good looks get words like daggers thrown at them.

So cheer up, there are other more important people out there that love you exactly the way you are.  You are more special than you could ever put words to and you better believe it.  Just remember, God does not make garbage.  And when you feel unloved, remember that God is love and He will always love you.  There is not a person He doesn't love.  Remember my last post, God even loves the devil.

let's make it clear:

No one loves me

God is love and love is God.  He loves you and there is nothing that He wouldn't do for you.

Nothing's Up

Which is a lie because the sky is up.  Also, God is up there in the sky watching you and He is most decidedly not nothing.  And God did not create nothing, he created people and plants and water and clouds (which, by the way, are also up).  But I'm getting far too much ahead of myself.

I want to write something inspiring.  But I have nothing.  Which is also a lie!  Let's not get into that shall we?  But I want to say something on this blog that causes 200 people to follow my blog.  It's not happening.

Or is it?

Awwwwwww.......The computer is meowing, must be AOL or something.  I wouldn't know.  I don't have an AOL account.  But Gmail usually works pretty well for me so I shouldn't complain.  Well, My one complaint is that I can't seem to find labs much less, themes on it.  I used to know how to get to things, but since Gmail changed it's look, I can't find any of it.  So I'm stuck with beach theme for all eternity, but oh well.  Life happens.  And like I said, I shouldn't complain.  I could be stuck with some boring theme.

I still want to say something inspiring on my blog or tell you a memorable story.  Once I learned something really interesting from this one retreat at some other church from my own and I learned the God loves everyone.  But that everyone includes everyone.  God even loves the devil.  That just struck me as odd, but really amazing.  I never thought of it like that before.

As that guy on Joy FM says, "You think about that."

Back in the blogging groove! MEEHEE HEE HEE!!!

Maybe.  I don't know that I have anything to blog about...NO THAT'S A LIE! I simply don't feel like blogging.  Then, why am I blogging?  Because I have things to blog about and no book to read for the time being.  Well, if I felt like it, I could finish reading The Hiding Place once and for all, but I'm doing this thing called Total Language Plus and it only lets you read a certain amount of the book per lesson and I'm already farther than I should be as it is.  I seriously have one more chapter and an epilogue and it's the end of Corrie Ten Boom.  I want to read more Edge Chronicles or get the third Kingdom Keepers book from the library (I never finished it; I'm on page 293).

We did our final performance of Jerusalem's most wanted and it went well.  There were a couple parts where I was thinking, uh oh, someone is going to notice that, but then I had moments where I was thinking, that's the best we've ever done!  And everyone did really well, the audience loved it.  I had nothing to worry about.

I'm having trouble blogging right now because the TV is being distracting.  My brother and my father are watching these strange and cool "surviving" Doctor Who clips.  Some of the video is missing video and only the audio is left and some of the clips are spotty.  Like you'll be watching the scene one minute and the next minute, the dialogue continues while the picture is black.  And in one of the episodes is only audio.  It's really strange.  I didn't think that such a thing existed.  I like the new Doctor Who's better than the old ones.  I think it's because there's much more action and it looks so much more realistic.  And the theme song is awesomer.  If that's a word.

I LIKE TRAFFIC LIGHTS BUT ONLY WHEN THEY'RE GREEN

And that is the song that one of actor's brother made up.  And it is so catchy!  I like traffic lights, I like traffic lights, I like traffic lights, but only when they're green!  And then we altered the lyrics so it goes like this (for all you Pirates fans) : I like Jack Sparrow, I like Jack Sparrow, I like Jack Sparrow, but only when he's free!  And then another actor got angry at us for singing it so much and started singing:  I hate traffic lights all the time!  Then it's awesome because you can harmonize it if you'd like.  Now it sounds like one of those voice warm up songs.

Besides traffic lights, our performance went normally...or at least as normal as us actor can get.  It's hard to remain calm when you're so nervous about everything.  Yesterday, while we were doing our preview, I missed one of my lines because I was about to say it when one of the actors cut me off, I was very anxious as to whether or not people noticed, not that there were many people in the audience to see the preview.  But I don't think anyone really noticed my mistake, and if they did, they didn't tell me.  But it was even better because the line I missed happened to be one of the annoying and seemingly unnecessary lines where I say, "I wonder..."  I mean, saying I wonder twice within three lines is too much wondering for one character, in my opinion.

Also, on one of the songs, we sang the chorus one too many times so it was off until we altered one of the verses and started singing the chorus after the first line of the last verse.  Not that any of this is making any sense to you.  But besides those two things and the fact that it took a while for us to find one of the folding chairs that we were using as props, everything went as planned.